Grumble.

That's the sound my stomache is making right now.

15 more minutes until lunch time. I can do it. Usually at this time, I'll quickly find something to appease my tummy. Doesn't really make sense since I'll be having a good lunch pretty soon.

I have to be strong...

By the way, I'm not starving myself. I had a fair bit of breakfast this morning at 6:30 am and at 10, I had a at least 2 servings of blueberries. Plus, I had two full large glasses of water.

I have a peanut butter granola in my purse but I am saving it for my mid-afternoon snack.

I think I have to 'up' my mid-morning snacks. Blueberries aren't enough. I'll try to bring some veggies or something.

Oh my gosh! 8 more minutes to go! I'm dying here.

But I think I'll win :D

Slow motion.

Today feels like I am walking in slow motion while everything around me is moving so fast. Have you ever felt like that before? When you know that there are so many good things in your life, yet you are still unhappy?

Yes. I am unhappy today.

I’ve been spending too much time self loathing. I look at the mirror and all I can see are tired eyes and ugly, fat cheeks.

I want to lose weight and start feeling good.

When I was 10lbs lighter, I was more confident and more energetic. But I also remember wanting to be another 10 lbs lighter; it never ends does it?

I need to be patient.

Since the beginning of the month, I’ve been to C.urves once a week. Last week I went twice. I’m daring myself to go 3 times this week. I can do it.

I want to start eating healthier. I’ve been drinking more water each day and drinking less pop. Actually, it’s been more than a week since I’ve had any. I’m adding more veggies and fruits to my diet. Slowly but surely, I am going to do this.

I will lose 10 lbs by December and be happy.

Yes, be happy.

I want to be the happy person that everyone thinks I am.

Maybe.

I don’t know why, but lately I’ve been thinking a lot about babies.

Maybe it’s because everyone around me are having babies or maybe because the dust is beginning to settle after our move and the impulsive part of me is thinking, what next? There’s no way we are going to get another dog; K-puppy and M-puppy are plenty enough and certainly we are not planning on selling our place. There is only one more thing to do and I think we both know that it’s almost time.

We haven’t had any serious talks about it but we both know that we want to have one down the road. The question is, when? I just turned 29 and The Hubby is 34. Time is creeping up on us and one thing is for sure: we want to be able to keep up with our kid!

I know I get excited when I think about the ‘bells and whistles’ that comes with having a baby: room & furniture designs, baby clothes, names, etc. But when it comes down to the real stuff, like actually raising a baby, my heart stops. I don’t know if I’m ready for the responsibilities.


At the end of the day, I stop thinking about it but then it begins again every morning.

So I don’t know.

Maybe I’m just bored or maybe this is how it begins.

I love books.

I love reading books.

I don’t read as much as I would like to but once I pick up a book, especially one that I really like, I devour it within days.

That’s what happened when I read The O.ther. B.oleyn by P.hilippa G.regory.

She is an amazing author. I can’t believe it took me this long to discover her. I am absolutely intrigued and I can’t get enough of her stories.

On Friday, I purchased The W.hite Q.ueen. I started reading it last night and I'm hooked.

Now all I can think about is that book. I cannot wait to go home to find out what happens next.

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Home sweet home.

I’m loving the new house and thank goodness for The Hubby! I don’t tell him much (which is bad) but I’m so lucky to have such a hardworking husband. Instead of relaxing and enjoying his holidays, he’s been busy with getting the house in order. Since we moved, he:

1. Ripped out the old carpets and replaced the floors in the main living area/dining room/my office and extra bedroom.
2. Organized his office.
3. Organized the garage.
4. Is halfway through re-building our theatre room.
5. Started landscaping the yard.

We are positive that he has a little bit of ADD, hence the various projects but the best part is that they actually get done.

What did I do? I organized the kitchen (put things away), unpacked our clothes, and….. Oh and last weekend, I painted my office! And finished reading The O.ther B.olen G.irl.

Hey, I don’t have the summer off so once I get home from work, I want to relax and unwind!

I will definitely, hopefully get my butt in gear in the next couple of days because his dad is coming down this weekend to help him with more work. I suspect he will give me the evil eye when he learns that I’ve done nothing. Hehe, kidding but not really…